Signs

Some days we just lock out and run through our days like nothing else on the planet could possibly be going on. Well I know I do. It isn't as if we become inconsiderate or do not notice people or things, it just becomes a day/week/month where we start chipping away at the small things in life. The hard part is those little bastards all start to add up.

At some point we may come around and realize just how much time has been run down and time is the only thing we will spend and never really save. We all have different reactions once we come around. I know I started just looking at things, some times recognizing possibilities and signs. Signs within myself and at times within others. Over all I am good at catching patterns, in people and in my surroundings. I can tune in and out sometimes with ease others with a hammer but I will catch the wave eventually.

Lately I have been asking for a signs, looking for something to give me a direction. I suck at picking directions. I fight everything, every. god. damn. thing. I fight for the sake of fighting, and when I am not fighting I am being cavil. I have found myself working to keeping it in line which means more silence. I will not lie the sheer volume of noise in my brain is overwhelming. The sad part it is, that it is just that. Noise, unending, unyielding, rubbish. Don't get me wrong if you aren't the type to feel umbrage quickly and aren't too prudish I can be fairly entertaining. Where was I (see noise it flows freely) oh yes, asking for signs...

Signs are things that just seem to reoccur until we get the hint unless we are lucky enough to have someone just peg us on the damn head. I had that happen today. I was focused on having something show up to give me an outlet or just a direction. I suck at picking directions but give me a destination and I will get there no problems. OK, some problems but probably because I stopped to stare at a bird, dig in the dirt, help someone move and then remembered that I had a purpose. (much like me writing these) So, yes I had a lovely sign but my dumb ass did the complete opposite of what is my nature. Well no it was completely natural. I got my sign/direction and then either from being fearful or subconsciously cavil I asked for directions... (face palm) I have to remember that there are times and places that when you need to ask for directions you haven't earned your place yet. So I am going to plan this out and find a way of making it work. Maybe I will be granted enough grace to be featured.

Who knows. Wish me luck and sacrifice a goat...

(I was so tempted to just stick Ace of Base's "I saw the sign" as a link but no. If you want take your silly ass to youtube and play it.)